Things I’d rather not say…

It has been years since i stopped writing down my innermost thoughts online. I’ve even deleted my previous blog because I got so sick of how I could openly tell strangers about myself. This time though, I think even if I write everything down in a very detailed manner it would be buried somewhere because of how populated the internet has become.

It’s not like I’ll go back spewing my innermost thoughts again its just that. I wish to say something and the someone I used to tell it to is gone.

It’s lonely. I just got reminded. It’s been a while since I’ve thought about that person so this more of a nostalgic detour more than anything.

 

Day 15

Words by itself has no intrinsic power. When used efficiently (or without tact) it could do one too many things. Sometimes good mostly bad.

That’s why I gladly immerse in his silence. A gaze that lasts a mere second was enough to start a spark and build fire. His smile that I caught in a reflection stills my heart.

Then again, the image is distorted. It may just as well look and sound better in my head. I don’t want to do anything about it. This time, I sit this one out.

For now.
I’ll get away.
I’ll get lost.
For a moment, it’s not such a bad idea.

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Mondays are fine. It’s me who’s not.

I’ve been given one of three things I’ve asked for, apprehension is starting to brew. Two days isn’t enough to rearrange the routine I’ve doggedly followed for three months. I could’ve sworn it has nothing to do with my new schedule. More like what comes with it. I’d get to attend morning classes. I’d get to renew all paperworks that needed done before November. I’d get to feel the warmth of sunrise on my face. I’d get to linger a little longer than usual. The latter has a tinge of trouble in it, yes?

But don’t I long for trouble. Reminds me of the time when I roam the streets at night looking for it. Things have changed. It is a decision I’ve made since I decided to leave everything behind 8 years ago. Let everything go 3 years later. I’ve come so far. Far enough to realize the difference. If Jamie and Jane could see me now I wonder if they’d still love me. It’s not that I’ve become another person entirely. I have just learned to let different versions of my self take over me whenever I desire. And as of late my desires has become more and more intrepid. There will be no dearth of possibilities in the days ahead.

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DIY fabric hair pins/clip ons

Look how pretty they are. Perfect for teens (like most of my buyers) kids and even young adults. They can be used to accessorize pins, clip-ons headbands and even as a corsage.

It’s so easy to make. Here’s how.

Gather your materials:

Fabric

scissors, needle and thread

beads

candle

FirstĀ  cut your fabric into squares then cut them into uneven circular ones in different sizes. You may opt to change the circumference as you wish. Start burning the edges, be gentle and agile to keep the burnt edges, stop as soon as the color reaches a darker shade than the fabric’s natural color.

After that, gather the burnt fabric and stack them together. Sew the fabric together using the beads to cover the thread. Attach to pins, clip-ons or headbands and your all set.